Hello readers :) it's been a very long time since the last post.. I've been too busy dealing with my study and some other things that kept me uninspired, now still though. Actually I'm not really sure what will this post be about, i just wanna write (full stop) -,-
There are so many questions spinning on my mind like the electrons in the orbitals of an atom right now (the result of being too busy with school subjects,hehe) I wonder if I can get the answers very soon but something (or maybe someone) has pulled me to the uncertain position, I'm not even sure what I'm feeling, weird indeed.
Let's talk about life recently.. Full of boring yet exciting activities sometimes, when they became boring i just felt like screaming on the top of a mountain (or maybe i can use the roof of my house :D) and on the contrary they could keep me smiling like a coo-coo all day.
There are so many questions spinning on my mind like the electrons in the orbitals of an atom right now (the result of being too busy with school subjects,hehe) I wonder if I can get the answers very soon but something (or maybe someone) has pulled me to the uncertain position, I'm not even sure what I'm feeling, weird indeed.
Let's talk about life recently.. Full of boring yet exciting activities sometimes, when they became boring i just felt like screaming on the top of a mountain (or maybe i can use the roof of my house :D) and on the contrary they could keep me smiling like a coo-coo all day.
What i just went through today wasn't the same like yesterday or even days before, I like to keep myself unaccompanied or probably just feel like to keep in touch with some people. Having a terrific conversation with someone discussing some things we rarely talk about brought me to have a fun time for a moment but when I'm completely on my own, I totally feel nothing and uninspired. I got not enough thing to say and prefer to remain silent, all I've been doing is just listening. When that someone came up with new interesting opinions, i didn't even feel like to comment but it doesn't mean I didn't appreciate all the things that someone tried to say, i just didn't wanna be seen unexcited today and in any way i had time of my day.
I wonder if I can share bout this thing and ask for someone's advice or opinion but unfortunately I haven't got the right person yet, moreover I believe every person has his/her thoughts that can be completely different from mine, all i have to do (still and always be still) is keeping this to myself, I don't wanna take a risk for anyone. There are always be "things that appropriate to be said/revealed" and "things that should be kept" just like what someone has said to me, it realized me much that it can be so tiring to save it secretly or at least obscurely in order not to worsen the normal situation, yes I'm trying..
Well, i know some of you might think this is random, yes it is but this is really enough to ease something that jammed in my heart. I guess this enough :) see ya later!
I wonder if I can share bout this thing and ask for someone's advice or opinion but unfortunately I haven't got the right person yet, moreover I believe every person has his/her thoughts that can be completely different from mine, all i have to do (still and always be still) is keeping this to myself, I don't wanna take a risk for anyone. There are always be "things that appropriate to be said/revealed" and "things that should be kept" just like what someone has said to me, it realized me much that it can be so tiring to save it secretly or at least obscurely in order not to worsen the normal situation, yes I'm trying..
Well, i know some of you might think this is random, yes it is but this is really enough to ease something that jammed in my heart. I guess this enough :) see ya later!
