Thursday, August 30, 2012

Dear mwabts :)

heyy.. it's the 3rd day i wont be seeing or meeting you anywhere. i hate to admit this, srsly.. i kinda miss you, kinda miss your words. i can't tell you directly cause my ego got in the way, either i don't wanna bother you and your works. you ever told me one thing that always pleases you is when your dad says "you did a good job," i can imagine how it feels, dude :) i believe in you, you really have a fair go, you've got that effort and dedication,and you've been doing great.
sometimes i think that you're way too young to endure all the things you do, i asked you if you ever felt that you wanted a getaway so bad..  i'm just 17, younger than you, yes,hehe, you know, i ever experienced that, i felt like i was dying to go away from this prison-like life, i thought i needed my very own time, doing whatever i want, no rules, no proper schedule, just me against the world or more dramatically i did wish i could fly to explore the world without any thoughtful thingies. i salute you, though sometimes i really do think that you're just 20% of a normal human :D i mean you're different, it's too cliche, i know, but that's why maybe i can tell ya you're my second fave person so far, don't be that happy tho! i wrote these good things just to support you allaway, no ulterior intention. from the very first time till now, I've never seen you let your works to overwhelm your mind, you considered yourself are able to take those responsibilities, though i'm not sure about the reality. if you remembered months ago, when you went to syd, you met cipto and he told me everything, even he could said that -.- well, receiving that info actually a bit impressive to me, on the other side i felt so damn worried!! did you know? Thank Him for giving you health but keeping is better than healing. these days since you started it, i frequently put my mind to your health! do you get enough rest? do you eat well? huh? really...i know your works are important and your dad is the one you wanna give the best of you but i'm 100% sure that he won't agree if staying awake at 3 am is okay. don't deal with your insomnia or whatever it is that steals your sleeping time! no coffee! *me also reduce my habit you know! sleep early from now on, you told me so, you have to do it as well! aaand, please Adrian is not a scapegoat! haha. you take care of him, he loves you so much! :) kk hooroo! on sunday! xx  i wish tho :p