He is Awesome

hey there! been so long? not really ya..
today I can tell you that I've been given a very great miracle from The One and Only, God. I'm telling ya that I'm not such religious person and I'm not even close to a good person.. I AM SINFUL! recently I started to realize that He is always there for me, no matter what.. He has been accompanying me all the time, from the age of 0 till now..
Let me tell you what just happened to me.. last month I was terribly busy dealing with tests.. one of them is called SBMPTN. Initially my mom offered me to take a course to help me through it, but I turned down her offer cause I think it was too late and I studied by myself (like crazy).. then the time came, the day I faced the torture.. I saw the other candidates and they seemed so relaxed, it drove me crazy ofcourse, all I thought about was "am I really the one who isn't ready?" yeah, I wasn't so ready yet, you can imagine how 'amazing' the holiday I spent by 'dating' the books.
First test was ok, kinda relieved.. the second one, it was basic educational skills tests, containing basic math, Indonesian and English. the time given was an hour for 45 questions.. IMAGINE IT! even though it's basic math, it's not basic at all, they were the questions that you need 5 to 10 minutes to solve per question!! that was my fault though cause I didn't pay attention to the time and Indonesian and English questions that I had not taken a look at all.. I was still struggling with math when the invigilator told me that I just got 5 mins left.. my reaction was like "WTH??" and I sighed quite loudly till some people in the room turned their head. you wanna know what I did after that? well, with the hopelessness I randomly chose the answers, I didn't even think to think, know what I mean? all I had in mind "YOU ONLY GOT 5 MINS, WHAT CAN YOU DO?!" haha, the most frantic day of my life.. the second day, beyond my imagination, there were 60 questions (bio, scientific math, physics, and chemistry).. I took a look at math at first, got shocked and moved on to physics, well, same, moved on to chemistry, hufff thank God some questions were answerable, haha, moved on to bio, my fave subject since I learned it at school, wait..... not for that moment! though I have 90 mins to do them, I was so pessimistic, I repeated what I did on the first day, i randomly chose the anwers for the questions I coulnd't solve.. if you think they were just some questions, you're totally wrong, I can say, I only got 10 to 15 questions that I was sure enough.. that means..... haha how pathetic I was..ckck I was kinda feel sad cause I felt like what could I wish from that, random answers, siiigh..
yesterday afternoon was the results day.. I intentionally woke up at 3 pm so I won't be in a panic mode for too long.. the result announced at 5 pm, initially I was so distraught, I was scared to open the website, then I opened it, guess what, I got accepted in one of the university I chose. it was almost impossible remembering what I relied on, random answers.. -.- suddenly I cried, I thought about God, yeah, He is very kind and generous, wow, I am still amazed by his work in my life.. There will be no enough amount of thanks I could say to return his virtues.. :")
with this post, I'm not saying that you can do what I did, choosing randomly, but work hard, as hard as you can, give the best of you, and don't forget to always involve HIM in every part of your life, cause He is the One who give you the real promises and He will always consider your efforts, no matter how little they are..
Keep the faith, pals!!